Starting a'Fresh: New Month

Wow how many months after right? lol this is actually harder than I thought... but it's a learning process and I'm hoping I will gain a feel and write more often than I am right now. I really want to but the will and push isn't... I guess you can say I'm a lazy writer SMH, sad innit.


Happy New month! May the good Lord continue to keep us all, and shower us with blessings. September is a significant month for me; beginning of new school year, my sister and mommy and friend's birthdays, my grandmother is coming, my aunt's death will be 3months (already) and so on and so forth, I am looking forward to this month. Also I'm using this opportunity to promise to do better this new month, LOL I mean it.


Currently, I'm nursing a loss, a painful loss of my phone of two years and few weeks old. It is depressing and sucks to be cut off the world (or at least it feels like it), I feel lost and just about ready to scream but I'm not. Hopefully somebody will love me enough to replace it soon... keyword being hopefully.

So what's up in the past 3 months you might ask, well a whole lot of stuff has happened and still is... made new friends, caught up with old ones and lost some. What can you do? circle of life I guess you can say. I got a job offer (none degree related) at the most random time ever, funny story too. My friend called me early one morning asking for a ride to an interview she had with a company and after reluctantly pulling the sheets off of me and getting up that early summer morning, we drove there and while sitting she told me to fill an application for job (wouldn't hurt if I did right) so I did and within the one hour we were there, I got interviewed and got my hours.. yea freaky stuff but it was awesome, it came at the right time.

Also during this summer, I've done some re-evaluation of what I need and want in my life: the kind of relationships I want in my life. Life is too short and precious to be serious, so all the over-serious friends/acquaintances I've distanced myself from.. some I have for awhile now but I'm learning to totally free them from my life, I don't need it. But one in particular, who I was very close to before an ex got between us, I have few words for (I'm finally ready to speak my mind to her, and exactly what I think/thought about her) so I've invited her lunch sometime this week. Hopefully she won't back out and give flimsy excuse because I am really looking forward to spewing everything, as in everything out and get some truth out of her about the situation that came about and her relationship with ex-boy.

So already this month is looking promising, school is starting, mending/closing friendships, and possible romance? hmm well we will see (including me) how things turn out. I cannot wait to find out and for you to read. But in the meantime, live like the next minute isn't granted, laugh till your sides hurts (plus you burn calories), and love with your whole heart.

Happy May.. Welcome L^3

Hello bloggers, yay it's a new month today and we're half way there already. I'm wicked excited about it, purposely because this month holds a new fresh beginning for me as well as bitter sweet ending to another *sigh* but I look forward to move on to the unknown. 

Let me do a quick intro here, My name is I_AM4LovE. I'm not entirely new to blogville but I'm taking a new direction to my writing, you know focusing on one area of life that I strongly believe in and think is very important. I've created this venue to be where I can come (you are also encouraged to make use of that as well) to rave rant vent and "shpill" everything and anything about Life in general but most importantly about LOVE *sigh dreamingly about love stuff*. 

We like to think we know what that word is but I beg to differ. It seems to me the older I get, the more clueless I am with this word, don't even get me started on how complicated it gets at times. Many times I've thought I finally got the meaning but then reality kicks me in the rear from all the BS I grew up believing and thought was the norm: you know the BS I'm talking about, I mean come on Cinderella, Prince Charming... then again are they all lies?? I want to know because I'm beginning to wonder "...so where the hell my Prince Charming!?" 

Truely I am for love (the name could not stress it enough) in fact I'm a die hard fan, I mean I get all emotional at everything love. Let's not even talk about these wedding websites and their "How We Met" stories. I too want look across the street and see the guy, or have the right connections with the cute guy at work. I too want to love hold hands with a guy I can get lost in his eyes just dreaming, I too want to kiss in public without a care of who's looking, I too want to write my name next to his in the sand... go on vacation and just get more lost in love. I too want to love like Christ loved the church... to have and hold, protect, care, and all the other mushy things love does to people. You know what I mean?

But I wonder though, is there like a guideline to this thing? A rulebook written to fit individual person, I will like a copy please! Wouldn't that be perfect if we all had a book written for us that illustrates how, where, what you need to find love. I think that will be too awesome 'cause goodness knows that with school, work, other things... it can be really hard but that is one challenge I'm willing to take. Like I mentioned earlier, this is the place to get all mushy and even day dream about fairytale love story and I plan on keeping an update but for now it's Adios!

Till next time :) 

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